Memories Fading
Feb 2nd
Memories fading
the past is so restraining,
only mistakes and misguided fears
I know, I know
I’ll just let it all go.
memories fading
only to flash right back
these eyes, won’t seem to cry.
who could see these tears
even if I could make you feel…
You’re all so cold…or is it me?
memories fading
This heart is not mending
I feel like a fake
I feel like a fraud
my frown is so happy
who would have thought,
my heart never was?
Five minutes to midnight
Dec 14th
Its five minutes to midnight
and all I can do is think of you.
I sit and wonder where you are
cause my dreams,
aren’t nearly as far.
My eyes are heavy and
the worlds slowed down.
Five minutes to midnight
and my fairy godmothers’
never shown…
Turn me into Cinderella
let me dance in your arms
until the clock strikes twelve
cause,
it’s five minutes to midnight
and how I’m longing
for you to appear.
Toils of Romance
Dec 10th
I finally found someone new but after 3 years I still woke up crying over you; I swear I wasn’t in love, I swear I’m over you this time, I swear I am… =] Your the reason for everything I am today You put me back together after years of depression then you ripped my heart back out, why’d you even put it back together in the first place? I’m so sick of this I’msick of not admitting that since you I’ve only dated ugly guys cause there safe, I swear no one has ever made me laugh or cry as much as you. Even if your not around I’m still crying and laughing over you….It sickens me you have contradicted everything I ever said. You are the reason I’m a lier when I say I’ve never been in love…. Your the reason I don’t want to fall back in love, your the reason I am the way I am a slut, but it’s not your fault I made all those decisions on my own, its all my fault for letting you affect me so.. but Id only change one thing. and it’s not even staying with you in the end cause we were always just best friends you didn’t have room to love me after you put me back together again.
Dec 8th
Just got a new iPhone and I love it! Anyway I’ve just been running around met this dude named travis, I really like him so far but he’s in the marines and about to go to afgan 
so not happy bout that he’s going to be a gunner and driver because o course he wanted that! The looser… O well
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Nov 18th
So today, I feel like crap… I hate feeling like crap because I feel like I just wine about it all day instead of doing anything productive :/
Nov 15th
Lets start with a boy we shall label as "T" so we don’t give him away to the world, he is the perfect example of why I DON’T date younger boys…I swear there mouths run more than a girls 
anyways he has told my family somethings about our relationship and next time I see him, he will get the s*** beat out of him [= but on the flip side me n nick r officially a couple..I think it’s been a year since I’ve had an actual bf…. We’ll have to see how this goes. He’s super sweet but idk (like always.) Um…I’m pretty sure my bad week started at 615 am fri and ended today (FINALLY!!) NIck made it better yesterday but after he left it all came apart again, idky…. anyways enough of my bitching it could have been worse. Today was the perfect lazy day, I’m hopping this week goes good…. Well that’s all I’ve got for now laterzz.
<3 Chells
Chells